There is nothing like being loopy and totally unprepared for a phone interview. Cheese and rice, that was stressful.
And he was a lawyer. Normally, I'd be ready to go. But I am not myself today and having some congestion medication loopiness. Took stuff this morning because, I foolishly thought, "I got nothing going on today. Don't even have to drive anywhere."
Ha ha. Handy J needs a ride to work after all. Lawyer calls to grill me. Yikes.
Also unexpected: landing an interview from this phone call. I have to go buy some kinda suit for my fat ass. Yuck.
While this is good news, in a sense, it's mostly filling me with an unspecified dread. This is a real job, not something I can just screw off and do. I will have to learn stuff.
I obvs need to do this, because financial reasons. Furthermore, I should probably give up the ghost on any of my dreams and start getting real about my future.
I've had all this time to make something happen and I haven't. Doesn't that mean it will never happen? Maybe I'm not hungry enough. Maybe I didn't try hard enough? I am not sure what to do even now, so I think that's probably a given. Maybe I just didn't have what it takes to really go for it.
Unexpected interviews are STRESSFUL!
ReplyDeleteAs to the questions and wondering in the last two paragraphs, it requires some reflection before I can even think to respond.
No answers coming your way, but at least a thought or maybe two, about the pursuit of dreams. So, when my the brain finally gets a rest and can recharge, I will call. Because the subject of one's dreams is important and deserves thought and consideration.
In any case- I think you were fast on your feet/brain if your loopy interview led to an invite for a followup interview. You do possess a wonderful intellect and wit.
And a final observation that is emotional like the previous ones - You are damn good at learning new stuff. You seem to enjoy it.