Headed West

It's been a bit since I've posted.

Life As We Know It took a pause and I took a trip. It was the kind of trip that turns out to be a Life As You Knew It--because things change so much in such a short time.

After 8.5 months back with my family, tending to immediate and extended family business, I'm headed home.

At mile 312 my sadness got the best of me, and I was beset by a terrible longing and great deal of regret.

I was alright again until someone texted me a picture of one of the cats, saying goodnight. That provoked a rather sudden and emotional response.

My heart hurts.

You'd think, after all this time, I'd be used to sadness. But I hate it so. No matter how often I feel it, it never gets easier.

So I'll do what I always do: run fast and far. And maybe one day I'll learn to move fast enough to leave my sorrows behind.

At least that's what I'll tell myself tonight.

like tears in rain

when hard times come
they come in swinging
got a great foot game
and you just can't keep up

friends scatter like leaves
in the stiff November wind
when you are out of sight
you remain out of their thoughts, on no one's mind

all the faces you put on
get worn, tattered and soiled
all your smiles are propped up
with spindly scraps of "how it should be"

if we are all stardust
does that mean we're the leavings of Space
the detritus of combustible angels
undesirable elements

you fiddle with the machinery that keeps you connected to the world
but only because you've forgotten that world doesn't give two shits about you
(the proof is everywhere
in the absence of regard)

Because I Care

I give you this. And when you speak of me, speak well.

Hide Yo Kids! Hide Yo Wife! It's Prions!

I keep telling you fewlz that teh prions is big bad news. You all laugh at me, but SCIENCE backs me up, once again.

Prions Steal Your Happiness, Fuck Up Your Life.

Seriously, prions are linked to depression.

WHY DO THE SCIENTISTS KEEP MAKING THEM?!?!?!?!?!?!?

MLA Citation
Publicase Comunicação Científica. "Sequestered prion protein takes the good mood away, suggests new hypothesis on depression." ScienceDaily. ScienceDaily, 13 August 2015. <www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2015/08/150813104308.htm>.

Journal Source 1
Danielle Beckman, Luis E. Santos, Tatiana A. Americo, Jose H. Ledo, Fernando G. de Mello, Rafael Linden. Prion Protein Modulates Monoaminergic Systems and Depressive-like Behavior in Mice. Journal of Biological Chemistry, 2015; 290 (33): 20488 DOI: 10.1074/jbc.M115.666156

It's The Apocalypse, Y'all

The History Channel is showing an Ancient Aliens program. The theme is aliens, Hitler, and the Third Reich.

It's finally happened. The History Channel has come full circle and gone full retard.

Interstellar - Does Being Dumb Help?

Late to the party, as always, but I finally got to see Christopher Nolan's Interstellar.

(And no, I still haven't seen Inception. Pls see mgmt with any complaints).

Very interesting movie and one that I'm really glad I was able to remain spoiler-free. Not because of any amazing PLOT TWEESTS, but so I could let the movie unfold as the story it was meant to be, rather than waiting for the other shoe to drop.

What I'd like to ask about is some very basic science used in the movie. It appears to be a bone of contentious discussion on the Interwebz, and I have a feeling this is one of those things I'm too dumb to understand. I invite anyone smarter than me (and they are legion) to disabuse me of my simple notion.

Mild spoilers and "scientific" discussion after this cut.

If I Clean Your House, Please Don't Take Offense

For a few reasons:

1. It comes from a place of love. I can't cook, knit, sew, or build anything to contribute to the group. But cleaning is a skill you can learn, and when I put my mind to it I can clean pretty well. So that's what I can contribute to the cause. I do it to help out, not because I think you are dirty. I do it to give you one less thing to worry about. I do it for that great feeling of getting something done that you didn't have to do yourself. I do it to brighten your environment in a way you didn't expect.

It's all I can contribute. Please allow me.

2. For a little while, I get to distract myself from whatever is going on. It's usually when I'm alone, I pop in some headphones and go to town. Meditatioin.

3. My out of shape ass makes it an aerobic exercise. It's good for me. That's built in stress relief while achieving a measurable goal: mentally and physically healthy.

I'm not saying I do a perfect job. But I try to cover whatever I think is important for you. And I try to stay out of your personal stuff.